People disappoint me

You know how sometimes situations just fall into your lap and you may act without thinking or maybe you act with someone else's best interest in mind- you think you are doing the right thing. Well, this situation recently presented itself, and I allowed it to play out. I was honest with people and helpful and what do I get? I end up losing four friends and all over something I didn't even ask for.

I am very disappointed by this. I have been nothing but a faithful and loving friend to these people and when one thing happens that they don't like they turn on me as if I was never their friend.

I am so tired of fake friends or people who want to be around you only out of convenience. They use you and leave you when they are done with you. I'm done. I'm done trying to be friends with people. I'm done being the one who always goes the extra mile. If you want to be with me, if you think I add value to your life, then you know where to find me.

random thoughts by Hallie

So, I'm home alone tonight. Nick had to go to For Worth and for some reason this has left me in a HUGE funk! Don't get me wrong I have loved being home this week and reminding myself of the fun staying at home can be, but for some reason every interaction I had with people today pretty much ticked me off for one reason or another... and all I want to do is go on a big shopping spree. I even risked going out to do that and only found $30 worth of stuff that I was willing to spend money on.

Gone are the days of feeling better after spending a bunch of money. what a bummer... but not really.

So 2010 has begun and after 2 1/2 months I can't say that it is looking like a great year. It began with a probable adoption, continued with news of the adoption falling through and the wait becoming longer, and has now come to a place where God has closed a door that I wasn't sure I wanted closed. Now I am stuck searching for the window that was opened.

Wish me luck in this search as it may be a difficult search. Well, if you are reading this, I guess I may have either bored you into never reading again or severely depressed you. For those of you who are now in need of a "pick me up"... Remember that even when I am feeling down, my Father in Heaven is here holding me and comforting me, helping me to know that His plan is perfect and Holy. My prayer is that His will will be my will.